November 29, 2008
Having trouble getting out of bed today.
Feeling a little ho hum.
Could be several things..
My period is coming. I was really hopeful this month. I know there is a plan for my life, but the unknowns are killing me. (tears flowing….) Sigh. I know, I need to let it go, but oh, the heart still throbs with a bit of heartache. Of what would of, should have been. On how I failed to keep PS safe. On how I am failing to create life once again. (more tears….)
The economy is scary. I truly am pep talking myself into believing it will all work out. But it is scary. My job, DH’s job- is tenuous at best. And currently I have taken on more jobs than I a can handle. What have I done? What am I doing? Where does this path lead? Do I have the courage to follow?