December 12, 2008
Or so they say
So why does it hurt even deeper?
Why am I even more raw now than I was 8 months ago?
Why does it hurt so much today?
It is not an anniversary, it is not the first day of yet another period,
I probably don’t want to admit what it is
My baby sister had her first baby.
I hear the squeaks of a new born baby- my neice, - in the background on the phone while talking to my mom, and the grief stabs so deeply, I have to choke back the emotions. Joy flows through the phone from the other end as I hear my mom content as can be while cradling her new granddaughter. And I am reminded what we lost…………