The question came earlier then I was expecting. Then again, I went to my first doctor's appointment since the d&c earlier than I had expected.
"Will you try again?"
How does one answer that question? I don't even know where to begin. Sigh... I promised myself from the time I found out that I had miscarried, that I would give myself as much time as I needed to answer that question. But the question was asked, so I am digesting it now.
When I was in the midst of the miscarriage, the dark cloud suffocating me, I said to myself there is no way I can survive this a third time. Even before I knew I had miscarried, while I was in what I call the 8 week wait (waiting for the first ultrasound), the waiting was such torture that I told myself I couldn't go through this again.
How do I give this up? How does one decide that its time to stop? I just don't know.
Today I won't decide. But the decision will have to be made, I hope I know when I am ready to make it......