I have stopped checking the TP for spotting when I wipe. I am not sure when I stopped, sometime in the past week or so.
I don't think I was entirely aware of how ingrained of a habit it had become, until I stopped doing it.
A well formed habit after far too many miscarriages, waiting for AF, waiting and more waiting.
I have looked at so much tp in my three years TTC.
It is freeing actually- to no longer be afraid of the toilet paper. A small sign of some bigger inner healing happening on this crazy journey.