Pissed

i'm pissed

i am pissed that the taxes aren't done.
i'm pissed that the husband has been gone all day when I didn't want to be alone
i am pissed that he has been getting done things on HIS list, rather than OUR list

i am pissed that I am not pregnant. plain pissed.
i am pissed that I have no idea how I will ever be a parent..or if I will ever be a parent.

i am pissed that the house isn't perfect.
i am pissed that the sky is grey today.

i am pissed that my ex-boyfriend/friend just had their second baby.
i am pissed that my husband called from the semen testing lab saying "this just isn't going to work"

i am just pissed.

I picked a fight with husband just a few minutes ago. I knew without a doubt that I woke up in a pissy mood, for no particular reason. I am not truly pissed at him, he has actually been so steady for me through all of this. I am just pissed that this is my life right now.

Easter is a few days away, but their are no signs of new life here. I am still very much in Lent.