A dear friend of mine sent me an email when he learned about our second miscarriage last spring. He happens to be a pastor. And his words and his prayer brought oceans of tears and comfort to my eyes when I first received the email. I am usually diligent in keeping my inbox empty. But this email still sits there. I can't bring myself to delete it or move it. And still today, it brings tears and comfort.
"Dear friend, You keep pulling at my heart strings and I so much just want to come visit you and just give you a big hug. I am not sure I can give you the answers you are looking for, but I can tell you I will walk with you until you do hear, or probably see how God is answering your prayers. I just know that suffering is a part of life that is sad and regrettable, and there is no good reason why it happens to you of all people.
Dear God- Dang it God, why her? I know you are caring for her, but why the heartache for someone in her life she has been longing for, longing to love and care for. Please God, please grant her the life she desires. This is a good woman. She has been faithful and loving and she desires more than this pain. God, I will gladly take on more suffering in my life that you might give her your grace. I ask this, I plead for this, trusting in your grace and mercy for my friend. I pray this in Jesus' name. Amen."