My February track record:
February 2008- Pregnant after only the 2nd month of trying. Hallelujah. But we know now how that ended.
February 2009- Pregnant (finally) after a while of trying. Hopeful but terrified. And we know how that ended too.
February 2010- still Not pregnant. Emotionally and physically spent. Hope was hard to come by.
And here you are again February. The first day of the month, February 2011- three years into this journey. And the month in which a beta will tell us whether or not we are pregnant once again.* And I have so much hope for you February. So much hope...
*With the necessary disclaimer that I have no delusions that a positive pregnancy test means a real live baby. I know all too well. Ahhh...one step at a time.
I feel a bit like a kid at Christmas, or on the last day of school- knowing that something is just around the corner. But my excitement is for my injections. Ha! I get excited several times during the day looking forward to my injection that night. Not because I like the needles poking me over and over (HELL, no!) But because it is one more task closer to the end of this. I am such a dork. And blog land is probably the only place that "gets" the twisted irony of this. :)