13 weeks (Hard. to. fathom. this.!)

How Far Along? 13 weeks (Hard. to. fathom. this.!)

Maternity Clothes? Pretty much have only one pair of non-maternity jeans that fit.  Everything else is now elastic waists.  My maternity pants feel very frumpy on me, so that isn't cool right now.  But I am trying to slowly find the right wardrobe pieces. I shopped over the weekend and found a few things I feel good in.   My non-maternity tops are quickly getting too short as well but maternity tops are still too big.

Weight Gain? Just a few days ago I was at +11 pounds.  But as of today, I'm up only 7.5.  Not sure why I've lost, probably just water.

Stretch Marks? No

Sleep?  Starting to get a bit better (knock on wood).

Best Moment of the Week? There were many-  number one was hearing the heartbeat with the dopplar at yesterday's midwife appointment.  Also we went out to dinner last week at a nice restaurant with good friends of ours to celebrate the end of the first trimester.  It was a perfect celebration.  

Movement? No

Food Cravings? Not much this week in the way of cravings.  Still quite picky about food preferences.  Sinus yuckiness has my taste buds messed up a bit, I can say that much.

Gender? DH says boy.  I have no idea.  While we listened to the doppler my instinct said girl.  But I still don't have a strong gut feeling.

What I miss?  Feeling good.  And I miss a body that feels strong.  Psychically I feel so achy, weak, and out of shape. 

Symptoms: Nausea has been better lately.  I think the only nausea I have is caused by my sinus drainage.  Sinuses still suck.  The girls seem to have doubled in size this week alone. Amazing how it happened overnight.    I have had a lot of cramping and aches and pain in my lower back, uterus area, and whole abdomen area earlier this week- low and high.  I imagine everything is just stretching and growing (?!).  It had me a bit on edge this week though worried something was wrong. But it has been a relief that it didn't last too long.

What I'm looking forward to?  My thick midsection starting to look more round and pregnant.  Relief from my sinus yuck.  Spring weather.

Weekly Wisdom:  I feel like I underestimated how much our friends would also love this kid who isn't even born yet.  It has been so amazing to see the love poured out from our friends and how giddy they are, even those friends that I didn't think were kid/baby people.

Milestones: End of first trimester.  Longest span of time without an u/s . Hearing the doppler.

Emotions:  I could and will write a whole post on the emotions I felt this week-  fear and panic having gone public with our news, followed by a bout of pretty real depression, then guilt that I would feel anything less than joy, mixed with  elation having heard the heart beat, all wrapped up in mixed feelings about multiple encounters of feeling now part of the "club" I've longed to be in.  But still feel like such an imposter once on the inside.  Like I said-  there is a lot to write about this week.  I'll save it for another post.